suay! - June 24

I lost my HP today and the feeling really suck. Its not so much of my phone going missing but it's the contacts in my phone that matter. It's going to be hell of a tedious job to ask everyone for their number. I'm gonna replace my SIM card tomorrow so if anyone of you happen to see this post kindly send me your number around tomorrow night, thanks!

Our team had 2 friendly matches, one on last week (NYP), another one was held today (NP). I wasn't bringing my A game on the first match, its probably my first match ever since i quit basketball like last year so i wasn't mentally & physically prepared(I'm not find excuses, its my own fault okay!). I wasn't crashing the boards, not boxing out and not doing my thing as a center. By the end of half time, i was totally demoralize. I've gotta be frank, i'm very confident bout my skills thats why i set the bar really high for myself. Whenever things don't go my way, the sucky feeling really gets into me. I know what i should do as a centre but i'm just not doing it in the first game, i don't know why but i just can't focus.

After today's game, i'm really starting to enjoy playing centre. I'm not bullshitting, everyone knows i wanna play forward but its really too tiring for me, running fast breaks constantly and stuff. I'm definitely able to attack as a forward but when it comes to defense, i'm really lacking far behind. I wouldn't even have the energy to attack after all the fast breaks and defending. I still can shoot as a centre, i know yong and han will be fucking pissed off when i shoot but i'm just confident la knn. i still can drive and stuff so maybe i'm just born to be a centre or power forward, either which i'm just happy with it.

Oh during today's game, i'm really sorry for smacking gab right in his face. Didn't notice he was the one setting the screen so i just shove really hard and my hand landed on his face. Really sorry.

Anyway, i was really happy with our team's performance today, lotsa communication and encouragement. We played well today, so communication and encouragement are bound to be present but what i hope to see is communication and encouragement still persist even if we're trailing behind our opponent. That will be so much more important and meaningful in helping our team during the game.